must have found my little cache of femme clothes and wondered, but I never heard anything said about it.

One of my greatest thrills came when I went to a high school party dressed as a girl. The idea was sugg- ested by a pal of mine, because it was to be a costume party, and the business of dressing as girls came up after we had thought about and rejected several ideas. It was easy for him, for he had a sister a year younger and planned on borrowing her clothes. As for me, I actually had my own things, but couldn't admit it. So, I explained to Mother what we planned, and she agreed to help me by lending some of her things. Her best friend got into the act by lending me a pair of blue satin panties with matching bra and helping with my makeup.

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On the big night, Mother and her friend handed me the clothes, which I took to my bedroom. My brothers stood by, laughing and joking, as I put on the bra, panties and rolled up stockings to my knees. I had to fight to keep from revealing my inner pleasure at being able to dress to go out in lovely feminine things. When I was dressed, I presented myself to Mother and her friend, who then went to work on me with powder, rouge, lipstick and eyebrow pencil. They did a bang- up job, too, and I was actually a pretty teen-ager when they finished. The only thing they couldn't do much with was my hair, but they arranged it in as feminine a way as they could, and when my buddy came door in his sister's clothes, everyone present made a big to-do over us while my Dad stood in the background and laughed. As we walked to the high school gym, we were soon recognized, and took the expected razzing, cat calls and bad jokes from every boy we met. gely, the girls didn't razz us at all, but instead made a tremendous fuss, and we were kissed so many times that our own lipstick was mingled with the residue of all the others. We really had a big time that night, but it was not until long, long afterward that I realized that my pal was entirely at home and relaxed in his sister's clothes, and I thought that in all probability, there we were, both of us TV's, but neither admitting I wonder if I revealed myself to him, too, that long ago night? Anyway, whenever any talk of the

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